In Awe

I can see myself, sitting in a broken chair; too small for me.

An ancient sentient creature perching on the fringes of life; mulching through the tunnels of time.

Grumbling at every whim, occasionally muttering curses under my breath about the rain; the weather of emotions.

Barking and balking at each pass of the monsoon wind, I stoop frail and angry.

Defiance at the natural world, a miserable old coot I will become.

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Mastiff

He guards the front lawn as if it is his mediaeval fort.

His gleaming chain sparking in threw sunlight as he marches the boundary fence.
His eyes narrow suspiciously at the passing boys, a growing growl tickles the back of his throat, attempting to turn them away.

Slowly retreating to his stump, his eyes never lowered, his gaze never wavered.

Boring into your faceless soul.

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Lustre

You are my inspiration.

There are so many things I want to tell you, all the time. 

I do; 

But no longer decide to.

Some things should be left unsaid. 

The spider under the rock should be left undisturbed, lest he bites back. 

Taboo is no stranger to me, 

For it is either he or you or me.

The undisclosed location of my memories are left to steep.

Sieving through the throes and the trawls of this century.

From that day till today and many more days to come,

I would like to, but shall not do; until kingdom comes.

The emotions transpired are admired then retired,

For the have no place in the hearts of yours or the men alike.

As the pain slowly ebbs away,

The rivers of doubt shall be washed with clarity; cleansed of this fouling pity.

The lacklustre of this evening's stars shall be a reminder,

To serve a merit,

Awarded as a warning;

My favourite purple star.

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Green = Go

The course of our friendship shall rest upon your mighty shoulders.

I will give aid to you, but it is time; your time.

Take the reins of this chariot and school it towards whichever direction you will it to be.

I can no longer help make the decisions.

It feels like a big responsibility, almost as a burden.

No blame will come past you, if our friendship were to come undone.

At least you tried?

Salvaging this derailed train car is of the highest upkeep.

You knew what you were in on when the pact was made.

It's either you do, or you don't.

No more empty promises, no more white lies.

You cannot afford any more.

Everything that had been lost, is already gone.

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Tanker

I have so many things I want to say, but somehow I no longer let myself say them.

Not to you, not to anyone.

For too long it has only been me and only me, taking to a one way mirror; I don't normally do, but I do now.

I have given up.

There is no more fight in me.

Our friendship has stood awkwardly for as long as it would, but thank you for the past and until now.

I've always said my number was up, but today; I feel it really is.

The time has come.

Whatever may be left, it is up to you to decide upon now. I do not want nor do I have the initiative to invest and maintain this friendship.

Let the dead lay dead, the living keep living.

Friend, love, and listener;

Goodbye.

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House of God

Pairs upon pairs of eyes were tracking me.

The cold, sullen atmosphere sinking the ship of warmth contained within my chest.

I am seeing yet I could not see,

A holy book falls, and opens to Genesis.

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Wishful Thinking

All night, there I was thinking about what I should do.

All day, there I was hoping to see you.

Its said that; what you want most, you'll never have.

I'd say; if you want something very much, yet accept that it isn't yours to keep, it then, will be yours.

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